The story of my Laptop...

After I reached U.S, I realized that a Laptop was an absolute necessity. I found that I had a lot of free time and I liked to watch movies/series online to kill time. An Internet connection with unlimited download was the motivation I needed to buy myself a new laptop, with a minority of its time being spent for my studies (Grinning...).So Finally I got a new HP 14'' laptop with 12 cell battery and a 128MB Nvidia graphics card. It was an awesome piece of technology that I used daily to play games like Crysis I & II, CoD: MWI & MWII, AOE & CS to name a few. Man... I used to spend more time playing games and watching movies... than studying with that laptop. The minuscule amount that I spent for my studies were also productive [Big grin again...] . It has withstood my continues barrage of buggy code and never had it given up on me. The laptop trusted me. But after 2 years... four semesters down and I am trying to finish my Thesis...my laptop just shutdown's down one fine evening.

The screen flickers for a few seconds and then it goes blank. I am thinking either the OS crashed or my program crashed, so I do the most efficient way to restart a windows machine.Give is a hard reboot!!. And so it starts to boot up and then the screen freezes again. I am like keeping my fingers crossed to hard reboot again. This time even the BIOS does not execute. F***, I am screwed. All of my data regarding my Thesis is on this laptop. I am cursing my self for not taking the backup.

Like any self-respecting Computer Engineer, I try to fix it by myself by removing battery, HD and even the RAM and I stop myself there, cos I couldn't go further than that. Since the warranty had expired , I can't ship it to HP for fixing it. So I paid an expert to check on my laptop and the diagnosis: "MOTHERBOARD, kicked the bucket!!".

It looks like, it can take only so much abuse...As I am writing this, my laptop is in the corner of the room stripped of its stomach( Hard Drive) waiting to be scrapped.

I am so attached to that laptop that I am refusing to give it up, even for scraps now. It has been there with me through a lot of tough times...(:D).

And that is the short & tragic story of my Laptop.

Stunted growth?

Immature and sluggish thoughts starts rambling through my mind when I consider 2008.It doesn't seem much different from 2007 or the year before that ,expect for the fact that I am growing older but none the wiser! Years seem to add its wrinkles to my forehead but none to my brain ( Which by the way,I meant as being wise!!)

Struggling through these thoughts,I realize the future or the past does matter for the present.Living life on the daily basis may seem like the hip thing to do... but it does not prolong your witty life other than for that single moment.Many live life for those sporadic moments and some for a lasting event.

I have been involved in an life altering accident,survived chicken pox with a lot of scars, quite literally and held accountable for a mistake that I did not make but paid for it dearly.That gives a pretty bleak picture of my past.Will there be a change from that in future? Does that reside with me to make that change? Will fate lend a hand to alter my perception on life?

will think on this and update soon....

-Alphy

One Year ago

One year ago,yesterday I met with a horrible accident almost lost my life,saved only by the Helmet that I wore with the strap on! Still remember the auto that caused the accident and my blook soaked body after that ,screaming at the auto driver for his fallacious driving.My Bike got totalled and had to spend more than 6000/- Rupees for getting it repaired.

Can't describe the turmoil my family had to go through after that incident and me physically incapable for more than week ,staying in Bed all the time.It was horrible.Now I am in US doing my Master's.Ain't is really different.

Still miss my bike though,zipping through at speeds exceeding 80Kmph between cars,the exhilirating feeling is exhuming!!The only thing that came close to that was at the rollercoaster rides at the theme park recently.

Dude I was riding the rollercoaster daily to work!!.Was caught for speeding once though.I was riding at 90 at a 40 zone.Wow was it a sight for the cops ,they stopped my vehicle and charged me for over speeding.I was speeding cos I need to reach the bank before closing time to get my bank statement which I had to send to the university for my Master's admmission.Once the cops tried to stop me but they were to lazy to chase me that they just turned on the sirens to alert me,by that time I was like more than a 1 Km away from them.so they stopped their sirens and went to rest.I know this cos,I stopped my bike after that and waited If they would come,but no one did...This has happened more than once for me.. :)I assume I was tooo fast and that is the reason to.

How does that look now? Dunno !!! Well I am still reminiscencing about the events before and after the accident to under why it all happened? Doesn't make much of sense to me then and even now it still remains the same.

Most of 'em think that I was drunk at the time,well I wasn't!! How could I be drunk.It was just after swimming ,I drove back from the pool to my house and got caught in this haywire.

Well let me wallow in my thoughts for now.just wanted to post this before I forget about it for the next year.

-Alphy

Remembering My School

For no damn reason,today I am in reminiscence about my school days.Well this were my thoughts.I always used to fail like minimum two subjects for any given term.If you view my Report card,it would be easy to find failed subjects rather than the other.

Marked in Red underscores,my parents would have been really mad,that I did not study at all.Well to be frank,I really did not study,did not have a reason,to study also.A big bummer though.Must have been the class Bum.

Then the thoughts rumble towards my crushes,there were a lot.I think I was having crushes like morning coffee,some were intimidating though.But did not take a decision towards any relationship with any one of em,cos knew it was a complete waste of my time.Man did I have realization even at that age....

Nothin else came up from the memory archives.just failed subjects and crushes.Should I remember any thing else.People always say,the your school days are the hey days...But for me ,it was the college,cos for me the reason in college was pretty simple,don't worry about marks,but lay the foundation for your future.I did!!(learned how to think....)

I do not have any regrets,so I assume,that it must have been gud!! :)

I also remember the crush that I had in LKG .Do you believe that,I cud remember that.But also,I do remember the face of my teacher,who used to crack my knuckles for talking or playing pranks on others during class in LKG.

It has been fun,but life ain't like that forever,so need to hang on to the thread of determination and hard work ,to make my mark in the world and have fun at the same time.

Signing of ,as I listen to the song "The River" by Good Charlotte.Really good tune...


-Alphy

Load off u 'r Mind!!

When I started this blog,my friend said that I was toooo lazy to maintain even this.Truth be told,there are times that I am lazier than a donkey.But it seems that I like writing about abstract topics ,that evoke no meaning,but just occupy plain old space on my brain.It is good way of taking it off my mind,so I can think about other stuff..Phew takes a load of my chest right now!!!

Writing is a good remedy for those who think chaotically,It gives us a chance to show much required attention on important matters at hand,rather than focus on trivial thoughts.Some time I ramble ,so much here,that one my fnds had called me up and asked "Are you okay? cos your writing is like a drunk driving a lorry!!".

One even suggested yoga to get my thoughts in place,Yeah,like that is gonna help me.I don't like things to go slow,it has its up's and downs though!!!.So coming back to the topic in hand does writing help me to take a load of my mind.Yeah it Does!!!

-Alphy

Reminiscence...

Does our past really affect the future that we are trying to create?All our actions have consequences.If you believe in the maker,then your life has already been laid out with a plan and it undergoes implementation on a daily basis ,one chunk at a time.It is our lifetime's goal to understand,why our life was planned in this way.

This is exactly,what Matrix,talks about.Except the difference,that Matrix is a trilogy and I am talking about our life here.One of my friend says," life is what we make out of it".Does it mean we have choices? But we do not get always ,the things we want,even after putting all the effort.Then where is the choice part in that intricate equation?

I ain't a theologian,or a philosopher,but there is always a puppeteer and that is for certain.Some call it Fate,others "God's thougtful Hand" .

I don't seem to find the answer even within myself or for that matter from the external world either.I hope time will an answer for all my questions.

-Alphy