Laugh about it...

Without purpose there does not seem to be a reason to live? With purpose there seems to be too much work to do! How many ways can a person be fickle minded like this? That is me for you and the plot still remains simple.I crave for stuff that is difficult to obtain and loose out on the stuff that I could have achieved easily.Well it would make sense ,if I had put enough effort to obtain something that I craved and actually got it.

But life it seems always need to teach me a lesson and uses the carrot and stick approach for everything.I am getting fed up due to this.

I have a lot of time to kill now and everything seems to move slowly...Miss my home and my family.It ain't about the food or the climate but it is more about the people I moved around with.

Job market looks really scary and I have to get an Internship ASAP,cause my dad is paying for my education and living expenses.Talk about being a burden on the family and it is me!! Being the eldest has a lot of responsibilities and I for one has not even tried meeting any!! When would I actually start taking steps to achieve not greater glory but self satisfaction of achieving something in life rather than trying to check If things can occur on their own or expecting things to be fed to me.

Well... I want to take a new year resolution this time and start living my life rather than allowing it pass on.I am no talking about going to parties and boozing till I pass out.I am talking about making use of the time that is very precious and much more valuable than all the precious metals in the world.

Have to catch a movie now...talk to u later....

-Alphy

Feeding violence to children

Recently read a report in BBC that Muslim children back in India protested against alleged Pakistan's involvement in Mumbai Massacre.The protested by burning the effigy of the Pakistan's Spy service ISI. Now it is just me or children burning something seems like an orchestrated event for public service.

Can an organization have an effigy? well getting down to my thoughts...Aren't we supposed to teach the children to be at peace with neighbors? If this is teaching for the young minds, no wonder our country is having internal gureilla's.

Violence begets violence but it is useful sometimes and not all times. It has casualties on both sides with only the dead winning the war.

Well...All that remains at the end of the day is a weary man getting ready to play (kill) another day!!

my thoughts...

-Alphy

Nostalgic again

Suddenly today I was thinking about the time I spent with my Dad just two days before I left for the US! We had lunch together outside at a Hotel.It wasn't a big place or this was not like the first time,but still this moment seems to be stuck in my brain!! like the last meal that I ate with my parents at home cooked by my mom before coming to US.

May be I am realizing all these stuff cos,I am really far away from it now!!What do u think?? It has been like just 2 1/2 months ,but feels like years have passed.Dunno if this bcos of the amount of work here or due to the feeling of Homesickness...

Well have a midterm tomorrow so I am off now.Just thought I should put my thoughts in words... and so I did!! :)

-Alphy

One Year ago

One year ago,yesterday I met with a horrible accident almost lost my life,saved only by the Helmet that I wore with the strap on! Still remember the auto that caused the accident and my blook soaked body after that ,screaming at the auto driver for his fallacious driving.My Bike got totalled and had to spend more than 6000/- Rupees for getting it repaired.

Can't describe the turmoil my family had to go through after that incident and me physically incapable for more than week ,staying in Bed all the time.It was horrible.Now I am in US doing my Master's.Ain't is really different.

Still miss my bike though,zipping through at speeds exceeding 80Kmph between cars,the exhilirating feeling is exhuming!!The only thing that came close to that was at the rollercoaster rides at the theme park recently.

Dude I was riding the rollercoaster daily to work!!.Was caught for speeding once though.I was riding at 90 at a 40 zone.Wow was it a sight for the cops ,they stopped my vehicle and charged me for over speeding.I was speeding cos I need to reach the bank before closing time to get my bank statement which I had to send to the university for my Master's admmission.Once the cops tried to stop me but they were to lazy to chase me that they just turned on the sirens to alert me,by that time I was like more than a 1 Km away from them.so they stopped their sirens and went to rest.I know this cos,I stopped my bike after that and waited If they would come,but no one did...This has happened more than once for me.. :)I assume I was tooo fast and that is the reason to.

How does that look now? Dunno !!! Well I am still reminiscencing about the events before and after the accident to under why it all happened? Doesn't make much of sense to me then and even now it still remains the same.

Most of 'em think that I was drunk at the time,well I wasn't!! How could I be drunk.It was just after swimming ,I drove back from the pool to my house and got caught in this haywire.

Well let me wallow in my thoughts for now.just wanted to post this before I forget about it for the next year.

-Alphy

Venting out,quite literally

Yesterday,myself, my roomies and other fnds went to a theme park for the ride of a life time.We went on a roller coaster,that is the longest in the world.If I remember the figure correctly it is about 4012 feet long.It was dramatic and there was this drop zone ride.It was awesome!!!.you travel at the speed of 72 miles/hour for 5 seconds.It lift u !!! quite literally....Now I know how MAVERICK felt.

The finale was called the volcano.You literally shoot out of a hole vertically in complete darkness.Imagine that!! and you do this ride at temperatures nearing 13 degree Celsius.You heart starts pumping like a rattler on a mission.It was awesome!!

Think about this for a moment.for more than 11 hours of roller coaster rides continuously (with exception to one ride,You can subtract that from my list)

It was really an awesome experience.If there had been any blockage in my heart,the pressure created yesterday must have been enough to unblock em.

Almost forgot one.Have u ever felt how ham feels when it's roasted over an open fire.Well I did it with security that I will not get burnt.Spinning 360 degrees that to five times continuously is nerve rackingly horrifying to watch and even more retarded to be part of it!!

If you want to check out the photos,here is my Picasa link:
http://picasaweb.google.com/alphonse.anthony/20081012KingsDominion?authkey=DZQMme0hJHU

and some videos in YouTube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcjea1GWUBw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w99jgSawzKQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbG4e2dZz3c
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2ScoGR3m9g
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sM3bSCHi1sQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zna-pksGFhs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLDnDpHJxYY

Enjoy 'em ,it is awesome..... :)

-Alphy

Tapped up Physical Energy

Played football with some of my fnd here and hell it was exhilarating!!Though I have not be exercising or try to maintain my body,I was able to pump energy for short while and then dropped out of the game.Man oh Man,it is really tiresome in a good way.All my locked muscles must have got a electric shock of their cellular lives...

Need to bring up my stamina level.Replenish my muscles both physically and mentally.Especially my brain muscles to start with...

I am becoming a good cook also nowadays.I never been in a kitchen to make any thing other than rice and egg omelette.Now I am cooking potato fry and vegetable fry.Would you believe it?If I get married,my wife would be a lucky person!! I will be a chef If I continue at the same rate.Experience make a man seasoned and it is true....

well got to finish my assignments and my thoughts are getting drowned over the loud blast of Eminem's "Without Me".so chow...

-Alphy

B'days

B'days are happy occasions,when your fnds and neighbours and so called fnds come to your house,drag you out of the house to wish you and get the treat.Why is that day an happy occasion? We tend to grow old and wise ( that is what other say!! ) as we spend more B'days of ours but does it really have any impact on our lives?

I do not understand the concept behind this happiness.I have made B'days and never ever have I felt the need to be happy on that day.It is just an another ordinary day.Am I wrong in thinking like this?Does this make me a stupid guy I don't know.I feel the happiness down to my bones,only when I achieve something.It could be nothing compared to what other might achieve but I do know that,It is some thing that make a difference in my life.

Once I was able to help an old lady cross the road.Now that made me happy.Even If spend time alone with myself reminiscence,I am happy to feel the silence and solitude.It is really interesting to know people have different perspectives on every subject :) That brings the diversity to life hey!!

Well got to finish my assignment now.so seeya..

-Alphy

Recent happenings

Officially my classes are gonna start tomorrow! Yipee so finally I am attending my first Master's Class.One of the professor has already released his course contents along with his exam Schedules.The Best and the worst part is that the midterm and Final exams are open books.So I can take my text book in and write my test.Now that would be a challenging one cos,then the Questions are not gonna be direct!!

The Project work carries only 15% of the grade.Looking forward towards the project so I can start coding again :).Missed it a lot since the day I resigned from Ericsson.

Well It is time for me to start studying and learn stuff.I am yet to give up on Campus jobs and the chances are less due to the high influx of Indians here.SO the opportunities are like long gone.

Digging into the facts now,gotta learn to wake early and sleep late.My aim is to sleep the required hours and not the extra so I can concentrate to studying.

Well I update regularly regarding this then.

-Alphy

My Saturday Night mix

It is Saturday evening and I am relaxing on the couch with my roomies laptop browsing online.You could hear the Eminem's "Without Me" in the background and as the beat starts to kick into my veins ,I smell something really hot!.It was my roomies trying to cooking Beef fry.Boy was the smell good.

This is our first time.Believe it or not,we found the number of whistles required to cook beef in the cooker online.Isn't is really cool that NET comes to everyone's aid...I hope that we can try to eat the Beef after finishing the cooking else it would be real waste of $5 down the drain... :(

Will let you know regarding the results in my next post.

-Alphy

Physic at work

So...
After fours years of gap ,I am taking up my Master's .Would this be a uphill task or a cake walk? I assume only the outcome can decide on that.Hmmm... One thing is for sure! After watching guys fresh out of college here,I can view that my way of doing things is bit different and slower ( surely I don't say mine is more mature!! so no laughs).Have to gear up and put on my thinking hat.It is really needed cos I am plannin on completing my Master's with thesis.So all high funda stuff but will I have the heart for it first? then the brain part comes in.( which I have assumed so far that I have!! :))ok,Moving on...

The university seems to be a really good place to learn and conducive to think,but I seem to be going towards the other direction.Just Kidding not yet started any!!

Well enough rambling for one day .Paid for my medical insurance this semester and it cost me $582( That is a huge sum ).It also seems that I have missed out on some of the shots required for Immunization ,so have to take on two more shots and that is gonna cost me another $100 ( It ain't covered in my Insurance :-( ).I think that I have never spent such a huge amount in one day in 10 minutes without giving much thought to that.No other option.

Well that kinda completes my day today.Forgot to add that today is my second day @ the Kitchen.Cooked some ladies finger fry.It had all the required elements to make it edible,but was not something that everyone would crave for.Well I think that would come with practice :).Don't laugh yourself to death,I was not the only one who ate it.

My mom had said that I would be a better cook than her,by the time I finish my Master's. :)) LOL. Pretty neat huh.Well I think I should start reading my textbooks for the courses from now onwards.

Well catch your guys later.

-Alphy

It ain't what I thought it would be!!

Always wondered how my stay in US would be?It ain't different from the fact that I have to cook,clean and wash my clothes myself.Now is that good or bad... Dunno?

Well It would help me to make myself into a responsible adult ( I hope... ).Cos My Parent's ain't spending money to become a sluggish rat!! Having said that..let's move on...Everything here is planned and built and not just at the moment structure.I saw a fire hydrant built at a place where there was just a road but no buildings nearby.Now that is forethought working for you.

The population seems to be less here @ the place where I stay and there are so many Indians,the Americans seem to be tourists here. Well atleast at my place.

Other than that everything else is same.The craze to reach America is really due to the hype and nothing else.But people here are really courteous and they say "Hi" on the road to a person who they will never meet in their life time again,but yet they do it....

That is really different here.Well logging out now.

-Alphy

New Place

I have finally arrived @ US.Well I did think that the feeling would be different, but it ain't!! It is clouded with facts related to my study as well as my desire to search for an on campus to reduce the load on my parents...

I always felt guys once they reach US they do not have to bother about these stuff.But I was wrong.Think about the fact that u need to cook,clean,wash and study at the same time.Man it is gonna be tuff.Additional to that would be the fact that I need to work.

Hope this experience would help me to understand and become much more useful to this world.

anyway's c u guys later need to run to catch the bus.

-Alphy

At last....

It seems that ages have passed since I have not updated my blog.Hmm... Been busy with my stuff here...Quitin my job and getting ready to start studying... :)

Wanted to do that from the time I landed on my first job.It is going to be a different challenge from now on.. Instead of meeting deadlines for Code freeze ,I will be meeting deadlines to submit my assignments.Truly a different experience and considering doing this like 20,000 km from your home make you think whether you would be making it through.I do not want to just get through but do the same with huge margin of difference.

Have to throw my lazy hat and put on my studying,active hat.Do you have nay suggestions...? If do please share 'em.

well off until I find time to update the blog soon...

-Alphy

Ageing...

How old r u ?that is like,one of the worst questions you can ask anyone!!
That is exactly,people greater than 30 told me.I was like 18 or something looking
forward in my life at that time.Now I am like 25 and I have started dreading those words.

I am not superficial but there is only one thing that bothers me,due to ageing.
I am running out of time.I have plans to do a lot of stuff in my life and I have not
even started the first job on the list.The problem,is that I keep forgetting the list :(

We know,for sure that there is a full stop in our lives and that seems to be approaching like a big red sign becoming bigger and bigger as sun sets & rises,like a freight train with out brakes!!

Procrastination seems to be my lingo...What should I do?Should I pray?Should I shrug it of as just a rambling from the deepest,unexplored part of my brain,or should I fear it?

-Alphonse

Really Good song [Memories - within temptation ]

Family & Relatives...

Have you ever wondered about the type of people,that you would/could meet in your life?About the type of life you might want to lead? About the type of lifestyle that you might be comfortable with?About your partner for the rest of your life?About the people who could/would influence your life?

I started thinking about all these stuff and anything and everything that comes to my mind( that seems like a memorable event) involves atleast one of my family member,my dad,mom,siblings,cousins and few friends,which whom I have seen the worst/best so far in life.

It seems that world is not an important place without family and some show this feeling externally.Guys like me for whom expression of any emotion seems like a quaint procedure try not to take much of it in.

It does not matter,how much you have gained from your life,but how much you have shared,to make others life livable.Well I am not a great person to share anything,but I try to ensure that I am not the cause of problem for others....

Well that should be a start? :)

Enough of my Rambling for today.
Try to hav a Nice Day.

-Alphy

Matter of wizened Choice

How do we choose our destiny or for the fact even the daily events? Do we contemplate on each our actions and wait to reap the consequences? or is it, that we leave it to divine intervention? Many of us blame God for our misfortunes and praise ourselves on our hard work for the worthy achievement of any cause.

Fickle minded that we are,do you think we have a purpose in life?Do we make a difference of some sorts to make into the annals of history.you get a chance to live life once and if you blow it!! who is the hell is to be blamed?

Excuses are some thing that we have in bundles,but we seem to miss out the very essence,making mistakes are part of our worthy lives. Don't be bothered about the millions who do not recognize you,but be bothered about the one who cries when you are hurt,smiles when you are happy,concerned when you frown and standing by your side while you stare death in its face.

Time and again people do talk about moments that change lives,but does it change their own lives? Preaching is meant for those,who cannot follow and me just an example of that.

-Alphy

Excess Baggage

Dropping speed from 40 to 0 in like 1 second,the disc pads catch the front disc stopping my bike immediately ,just before the stop line for a red light.Just then I could see a silver image from the corner of my eye,a silver Honda City.The Driver was a girl in her 20's are something.This would have been a normal occasion,but after she stopped the car,she went on to apply make up using the rear view mirror on a busy signal,but the sign was red though.

Whizzz.... Signal goes green and the car zips past me.Well I was tooo deep in thoughts to accelerate fast enough.I am not trying to judge anyone here,but aren't we becoming 2222 superficial nowadays.Guys with gadgets and girls with never ending fashion tricks and makeup.

Priorities seem to be changing for all us,including me.Hope this fast paced techno babble does not burst on our faces with time....

-Alphy

Nostalgic....

Myself and my fnd's were chatting about our brief stint in Bangalore.We Joined a Software MNC as Freshers and truth be told staying away from home for the first time.It was an experience that is deeply imbibed in my mind.Happiness and Sorrow mixed with friendship that lasted even perfect storms.Being a bachelor,I lived like one.Even my fnds,once in a while visited my house were taken aback with the housekeeping.Pretty Bad... :)

But all I can remember now,is not the pain of staying alone but the thoughts of having fun with my friends,working late in office ,chatting with some of the beautiful girls.I would say,I was the king,Queen and the Jester of my Court.

My rustic looks with a reserved attitude,a perfect clone of a loner with a mind that can concoct a deadly vision.People ask me as to "why I am the way I am ?".I don't have an answer to that,but I can't be myself,If I am not that.

My most blissful moment would be to "Give all that I have and hold nothing back ,to snatch victory".Imagine "Skidding on the asphalt at speeds exceeding 75KM/h".I have been through an nerve cracking accident lost my life amost,saved by my helmet.I knew at that moment ,I was to make a difference,may be not to the entire world,but to some one or more than one.

And that is exactly what I am going to do.Be the man that I am supposed to be and live life the way it should be.Rarely does one get a second chance,If you get it USE IT!!

Enough rambling..."Happy Living!!"

-Alphy

Drowned in my Thoughts...

I watched a Movie recently,which was a tribute to three college students burnt to death during a Political upheaval.It is not about the property ,or about the people who even deemed it necessary to commit this heinous act.It is about the thoughts and dreamz of their parents.

Every Parent has his own dream for their children,to see it quashed by strangers ,makes them lose hope not on this society,but on life itself.Movie's like these make me think twice,but these remain for those moment alone and never sustain.Can one person make a difference? can one move mountains? can one change people's perspective?can one put an end to the society's evils?

I am second tired of being a nobody and always grieving about my problems.It is time to take things into our hands and turn the wheels of change.It start with changing the way we think about life.You get one chance to live it and if you waste it,you don't even get a chance to repent!!

You don't have to move mountains,make a differenc to the people around you and that is all that needs to be done.The rest will fall into place by itself.

My top priorities are:

1) Stop being Lazy ( seems too vague a goal to acheive ... :( )

so I am breaking this up into,the important things that can help to make a difference,especially to my mom.

1) Cleanup after myself.
2) Do some household chores aleast don't be a couch potato.

let me start with this and move on to greater good.... :)

Keeping my fingers crossed here,and I will need all the luck and goodwill.


-Alphy

Tamil MA(My Review)...

If you want to watch a Movie for fun,I hope you do not watch this.If you want to learn thefacts that is troubling developing India,then you have got to watch it just to realize the issues that have been submerged due our lack of sensitivity.I am not talking about the globe trotting IT professional,who by the way don't even make 4-5% of total India.But due to us,the rest of the population facing hardships from House rent to daily food.

Let's get the sides clear.I am not against IT in India,cos I am an IT Professional.I do not know any thing other than computers,let alone make a sandwich on a sandwich maker.But due to the major of IT professional,who seem to get paid more than [everyone else other than me :) ]they actual comprehend to use, discard it
like water in chirapunji.

Have you ever put thought into spending 100 bucks on lunch? Once you lose control of your expense,the shop keepers are there to exploit this situation.Finally your expense exceeds your income and you jump ship's.What does a guy working in a Tea shop do?He does not get a annual raise.Even if he does,it would be less than peanuts compared to us.

Earn all you can,cos it is your sweat and Hardwork,but try to spend it wisely.Once IT starts moving to China,I think we would not feel a pinch,but part of our economy going down with it and its woes,some thing similar to US predicament now.As they correctly point it out in the movie,the minimun income still remains less than 2000Rs/- but maximum has exceeded ceiling.What will we do after 10 years.... Still remain a Mystery.I think I should think about moving to China!!

Human's brittle Facade

Have you ever wondered,why we mortals try to be attractive,or be impressive for that matter? The answer has been avoiding me for a long time and every time I come up with reasons,it always seems shallow.

There are some,who go to extreme ends to meet the requirement.Should we applaud them,or chide them for being so dependent on materials for self confidence.Well... you would have to agree that,we do all these just to gain self confidence,so we could do something,that we ourselves as single entity cannot try to achieve!!

The New year has been ushered in with a lot of gusto,but its meaning,seem to diminish as the hairs turn grey with time...have you wondered,what it means to sleep like a baby?? forgetting that a world with all its glamour expects the a lot from you.

As you grow old,your responsibilities increase.But does that improve your quotient? We or to be accurate ,me am growing very dependent or to a certain extent addicted to worldly goods.My resolution this year is to "Be independent!!" Nothing more,nothing else.


-Alphy