It ain't what I thought it would be!!

Always wondered how my stay in US would be?It ain't different from the fact that I have to cook,clean and wash my clothes myself.Now is that good or bad... Dunno?

Well It would help me to make myself into a responsible adult ( I hope... ).Cos My Parent's ain't spending money to become a sluggish rat!! Having said that..let's move on...Everything here is planned and built and not just at the moment structure.I saw a fire hydrant built at a place where there was just a road but no buildings nearby.Now that is forethought working for you.

The population seems to be less here @ the place where I stay and there are so many Indians,the Americans seem to be tourists here. Well atleast at my place.

Other than that everything else is same.The craze to reach America is really due to the hype and nothing else.But people here are really courteous and they say "Hi" on the road to a person who they will never meet in their life time again,but yet they do it....

That is really different here.Well logging out now.

-Alphy

New Place

I have finally arrived @ US.Well I did think that the feeling would be different, but it ain't!! It is clouded with facts related to my study as well as my desire to search for an on campus to reduce the load on my parents...

I always felt guys once they reach US they do not have to bother about these stuff.But I was wrong.Think about the fact that u need to cook,clean,wash and study at the same time.Man it is gonna be tuff.Additional to that would be the fact that I need to work.

Hope this experience would help me to understand and become much more useful to this world.

anyway's c u guys later need to run to catch the bus.

-Alphy

At last....

It seems that ages have passed since I have not updated my blog.Hmm... Been busy with my stuff here...Quitin my job and getting ready to start studying... :)

Wanted to do that from the time I landed on my first job.It is going to be a different challenge from now on.. Instead of meeting deadlines for Code freeze ,I will be meeting deadlines to submit my assignments.Truly a different experience and considering doing this like 20,000 km from your home make you think whether you would be making it through.I do not want to just get through but do the same with huge margin of difference.

Have to throw my lazy hat and put on my studying,active hat.Do you have nay suggestions...? If do please share 'em.

well off until I find time to update the blog soon...

-Alphy

Ageing...

How old r u ?that is like,one of the worst questions you can ask anyone!!
That is exactly,people greater than 30 told me.I was like 18 or something looking
forward in my life at that time.Now I am like 25 and I have started dreading those words.

I am not superficial but there is only one thing that bothers me,due to ageing.
I am running out of time.I have plans to do a lot of stuff in my life and I have not
even started the first job on the list.The problem,is that I keep forgetting the list :(

We know,for sure that there is a full stop in our lives and that seems to be approaching like a big red sign becoming bigger and bigger as sun sets & rises,like a freight train with out brakes!!

Procrastination seems to be my lingo...What should I do?Should I pray?Should I shrug it of as just a rambling from the deepest,unexplored part of my brain,or should I fear it?

-Alphonse

Really Good song [Memories - within temptation ]

Family & Relatives...

Have you ever wondered about the type of people,that you would/could meet in your life?About the type of life you might want to lead? About the type of lifestyle that you might be comfortable with?About your partner for the rest of your life?About the people who could/would influence your life?

I started thinking about all these stuff and anything and everything that comes to my mind( that seems like a memorable event) involves atleast one of my family member,my dad,mom,siblings,cousins and few friends,which whom I have seen the worst/best so far in life.

It seems that world is not an important place without family and some show this feeling externally.Guys like me for whom expression of any emotion seems like a quaint procedure try not to take much of it in.

It does not matter,how much you have gained from your life,but how much you have shared,to make others life livable.Well I am not a great person to share anything,but I try to ensure that I am not the cause of problem for others....

Well that should be a start? :)

Enough of my Rambling for today.
Try to hav a Nice Day.

-Alphy

Matter of wizened Choice

How do we choose our destiny or for the fact even the daily events? Do we contemplate on each our actions and wait to reap the consequences? or is it, that we leave it to divine intervention? Many of us blame God for our misfortunes and praise ourselves on our hard work for the worthy achievement of any cause.

Fickle minded that we are,do you think we have a purpose in life?Do we make a difference of some sorts to make into the annals of history.you get a chance to live life once and if you blow it!! who is the hell is to be blamed?

Excuses are some thing that we have in bundles,but we seem to miss out the very essence,making mistakes are part of our worthy lives. Don't be bothered about the millions who do not recognize you,but be bothered about the one who cries when you are hurt,smiles when you are happy,concerned when you frown and standing by your side while you stare death in its face.

Time and again people do talk about moments that change lives,but does it change their own lives? Preaching is meant for those,who cannot follow and me just an example of that.

-Alphy

Excess Baggage

Dropping speed from 40 to 0 in like 1 second,the disc pads catch the front disc stopping my bike immediately ,just before the stop line for a red light.Just then I could see a silver image from the corner of my eye,a silver Honda City.The Driver was a girl in her 20's are something.This would have been a normal occasion,but after she stopped the car,she went on to apply make up using the rear view mirror on a busy signal,but the sign was red though.

Whizzz.... Signal goes green and the car zips past me.Well I was tooo deep in thoughts to accelerate fast enough.I am not trying to judge anyone here,but aren't we becoming 2222 superficial nowadays.Guys with gadgets and girls with never ending fashion tricks and makeup.

Priorities seem to be changing for all us,including me.Hope this fast paced techno babble does not burst on our faces with time....

-Alphy

Nostalgic....

Myself and my fnd's were chatting about our brief stint in Bangalore.We Joined a Software MNC as Freshers and truth be told staying away from home for the first time.It was an experience that is deeply imbibed in my mind.Happiness and Sorrow mixed with friendship that lasted even perfect storms.Being a bachelor,I lived like one.Even my fnds,once in a while visited my house were taken aback with the housekeeping.Pretty Bad... :)

But all I can remember now,is not the pain of staying alone but the thoughts of having fun with my friends,working late in office ,chatting with some of the beautiful girls.I would say,I was the king,Queen and the Jester of my Court.

My rustic looks with a reserved attitude,a perfect clone of a loner with a mind that can concoct a deadly vision.People ask me as to "why I am the way I am ?".I don't have an answer to that,but I can't be myself,If I am not that.

My most blissful moment would be to "Give all that I have and hold nothing back ,to snatch victory".Imagine "Skidding on the asphalt at speeds exceeding 75KM/h".I have been through an nerve cracking accident lost my life amost,saved by my helmet.I knew at that moment ,I was to make a difference,may be not to the entire world,but to some one or more than one.

And that is exactly what I am going to do.Be the man that I am supposed to be and live life the way it should be.Rarely does one get a second chance,If you get it USE IT!!

Enough rambling..."Happy Living!!"

-Alphy

Drowned in my Thoughts...

I watched a Movie recently,which was a tribute to three college students burnt to death during a Political upheaval.It is not about the property ,or about the people who even deemed it necessary to commit this heinous act.It is about the thoughts and dreamz of their parents.

Every Parent has his own dream for their children,to see it quashed by strangers ,makes them lose hope not on this society,but on life itself.Movie's like these make me think twice,but these remain for those moment alone and never sustain.Can one person make a difference? can one move mountains? can one change people's perspective?can one put an end to the society's evils?

I am second tired of being a nobody and always grieving about my problems.It is time to take things into our hands and turn the wheels of change.It start with changing the way we think about life.You get one chance to live it and if you waste it,you don't even get a chance to repent!!

You don't have to move mountains,make a differenc to the people around you and that is all that needs to be done.The rest will fall into place by itself.

My top priorities are:

1) Stop being Lazy ( seems too vague a goal to acheive ... :( )

so I am breaking this up into,the important things that can help to make a difference,especially to my mom.

1) Cleanup after myself.
2) Do some household chores aleast don't be a couch potato.

let me start with this and move on to greater good.... :)

Keeping my fingers crossed here,and I will need all the luck and goodwill.


-Alphy

Tamil MA(My Review)...

If you want to watch a Movie for fun,I hope you do not watch this.If you want to learn thefacts that is troubling developing India,then you have got to watch it just to realize the issues that have been submerged due our lack of sensitivity.I am not talking about the globe trotting IT professional,who by the way don't even make 4-5% of total India.But due to us,the rest of the population facing hardships from House rent to daily food.

Let's get the sides clear.I am not against IT in India,cos I am an IT Professional.I do not know any thing other than computers,let alone make a sandwich on a sandwich maker.But due to the major of IT professional,who seem to get paid more than [everyone else other than me :) ]they actual comprehend to use, discard it
like water in chirapunji.

Have you ever put thought into spending 100 bucks on lunch? Once you lose control of your expense,the shop keepers are there to exploit this situation.Finally your expense exceeds your income and you jump ship's.What does a guy working in a Tea shop do?He does not get a annual raise.Even if he does,it would be less than peanuts compared to us.

Earn all you can,cos it is your sweat and Hardwork,but try to spend it wisely.Once IT starts moving to China,I think we would not feel a pinch,but part of our economy going down with it and its woes,some thing similar to US predicament now.As they correctly point it out in the movie,the minimun income still remains less than 2000Rs/- but maximum has exceeded ceiling.What will we do after 10 years.... Still remain a Mystery.I think I should think about moving to China!!

Human's brittle Facade

Have you ever wondered,why we mortals try to be attractive,or be impressive for that matter? The answer has been avoiding me for a long time and every time I come up with reasons,it always seems shallow.

There are some,who go to extreme ends to meet the requirement.Should we applaud them,or chide them for being so dependent on materials for self confidence.Well... you would have to agree that,we do all these just to gain self confidence,so we could do something,that we ourselves as single entity cannot try to achieve!!

The New year has been ushered in with a lot of gusto,but its meaning,seem to diminish as the hairs turn grey with time...have you wondered,what it means to sleep like a baby?? forgetting that a world with all its glamour expects the a lot from you.

As you grow old,your responsibilities increase.But does that improve your quotient? We or to be accurate ,me am growing very dependent or to a certain extent addicted to worldly goods.My resolution this year is to "Be independent!!" Nothing more,nothing else.


-Alphy

Balance of Thought...

I was recently ,a spectator to an odd scene.A beggar was begging for alms on a busy street,and occasionally people dropped few coins.The disturbing fact was,that people never even considered or blinked an eye towards the beggar.At least 100 people might have crossed him,but no one realized that a man was begging for food !!

It is a really pity that we do not have concern for others,it does not necessarily have to be beggars,even out family members.My mom always says that I am too busy to talk to her.Me,I am like a guy stuck to computers,neglecting human contact for reason's unknown.Reality check needs to be done now....

Each one has his own interests,but the concept of life,moves people in opposite directions,in cases do things that they do not like.But we seem to miss out the most simplest of all things ,that life is all about people interacting with others.Even with your dog,it means an interaction that has the feeling not that of an cold steel,but that of a soul...

Nowadays,you could see commuters with their headphones, busy in theirs thought to achieve success,but for what purpose do they do it and what cost? We seem to miss out on that meaning of success. Dubious it may sound,but I am also of the same clan,pursuing success ,but at what cost and for what seems to be a never ending bill to be finalized.

India & ITES

I had a chance to talk to one of my college professors and it centered around the IT industry.The final out come of this discussion were these questions.

1) Why does all Indian based MNC's are afraid to invest in developing new products?
2) I du know,that there are a lot of small companies which develop products,
but IT majors like Wipro,TCS have the money to invest more
and gain accordingly.

3) Is it becos we Indian always tend to avoid risks....?
4) In the long run,may be 10 to 15 years,when Europe and America finds outsourcing
to India costly,what do we do then with the million engineers?

5) Send them to other cheaper countries?
6) wouldn't we face the same problems the local Americans are facing now due to
outsourcing.
7) With Dollar value decreasing in strength,alarm bells are already started
ringing in the IT industry!!

What are we gonna do?
-Alphy

I was just Wondering....

Have you ever felt that things would have been different,"If only you would have done it the other way".It seems to me,that reality does not make sense with out pain and humans can never be satisfied.

I am wandering around my past memories and present day woes,to finalize on my way forward.But it is that,my way forward always depends on my past.Why is that?Why cannot one turn the leaf around?Your past is there to haunt,but you would have to agree,life ain't easy.I am beginning to realize that there is not a part of my life that I could miss.cos every part of it,adds up to something valuable to survive.you cannot fast forward or mute it.( sentences ripped from the movie "Click").

I am greedy,when it comes to anything and the only thing ,that stops me from doing anything stupid,is my own stupidity and laziness.I was involved in an accident few weeks back,it made me think twice about the stuff that I am doing and the stuff that I wanna do.

Believe it or not,the only thing that I am interested in is food and sleep.lot of 'em.Where do I proceed forward from this.Adding pounds to my already equipped body!!I need to think!!

If you guys have any thoughts,to help out this guy,please do so:)
cos,"Any one can give advice,but it takes a strong heart to follow it."

Rambler(Alphy)

Diwali -- Festival of lights and sound

Usually,on Day off,I wake up late,really late.But today I was forced to wake up early.For one reason,there were high decibel crackers going all around my house.man was it loud !! people seem to be missing the point of having festivals.

I am not against crackers,why can't they do that,with stuff that does not make a lot of noise.It is like a race ,among teens.The bigger the bang,the more happy they are.It is causing my neck to hurt here,with all the damn sound.

If I am right,the bursting of crackers started on wednesday night @ 1:00 AM itself.BUt i can't blame anyone hey.SOme like bursting crackers,i like listening to loud music,so i can't comment on any.But atleast,I listen to noise with headphones!!

I think they need to come up with some device,that would store all the crackers sound and teens can play it however they like it,with their headphones on.

-Alphy

RoadSense lost to the ages

How many of us know?

If an oncoming vehicle blinks his headlights in rapid succession:
He wants to go first,so you should wait!

Do you switch on your indicator,not just for making a turns,but even for
changing lanes?

You should use your horn sparingly.Learn to use your headlights to indicate,
if you want to overtake.since blaring horns can distract other drivers.

So how do you teach other drivers regarding this.Having a license does not
credit you with knowledge as how to drive.

Check out this link on Safe Driving

It is not that "Speed Kills",but other drivers ignorance,causes these kills.
Either teach 'em,else start driving slowly,so you can react for any scenario :)

On a lighter note:Did you know,that you could be fined for spilling water on the
road(202 M.M.V.R 177 M .V. A ).That is news to me!!

-Alphy

Near Death experience

As I write this log,I am suffering from pain on both my hands,my right leg and left back .it is completely chafed.If I had not worn my helmet,may be some one else would have been writing my eulogy now.There is only one chip on the helmet and if my bare head would have been there,it would have been a catastrophe for me.

I thank God for giving me a life to live again.This is a second by second description of my encounter ( understanding the close texture of the asphalt) with out hype.I was riding my bike behind a lorry in the GST road near chrompet.out of no f*** place comes this auto between me and the lorry.This guy was trying to cross the road from the opposite lane.Trying to avoid him,I moved left,but to no avail,that guy also moved fast and bang hit the front of the auto from his left.I slid along with my bike and was thrown like 18 to 20 meters with my bike from the point of collision.

The next thing I knew was,I was standing up and shouting at the guy as to,where the heck did he come from?

The the real pain hit me,when most of them came and looked my helmet and said,that I should have been a goner.They did not expect me to wake up from the road after a collision like that.The Helmet saved my head.

After all the argument,nothing panned out,anyway I was in pain,just parked my bike on the side of the road,took an auto and reached home.

Damages on both side:

Auto: A dent on the left side.
Broken headlight.

Would you believe,it he was asking for me to pay up for the headlight.
He should be happy that I did not press charges...

My Bike:

My leg guard is pasted to the engine on the right and left side is
looking towards the right
The rear brake came lose from its fixure and is completely twisted as
heap of rubber.
My side mirrors are not there.
The leg rests on both sides are like below the bike
Ofcourse one or two indicators dunnot for sure are missing.
Handlebar looks like it went to a rave party.
The chasis to hold the leg rest is broken into two on impact,you could
see the actual place of stress.
other cosmetics damages are again in this huge list.

I think,once the mechanic has a look at it,I would know,the price that I would have to shell out.Have to check with insurance company,if they would cover this without a FIR.

I think ,this is a small price that I have to pay for being a speedster.But I have not yet started to enjoy life.... :(

U could be wondering,then why am I writing this now,shouldn't I be in bed.Yeah,even my mom is saying that,but I have kill time and do something that help me to forget the pain.This does......

Anyway my advice to you,wear a helmet,it might not save your bike,but it would save your life!!Even though I did maneuver my bike correctly to avoid the collision,it was just not enough,else I would be writing about some other topic.

The only fact that haunts me now his:What would have happened,if I did not wear an helmet? It sends shiver down my spine,even to think about that.

-Alphy

Remembering My School

For no damn reason,today I am in reminiscence about my school days.Well this were my thoughts.I always used to fail like minimum two subjects for any given term.If you view my Report card,it would be easy to find failed subjects rather than the other.

Marked in Red underscores,my parents would have been really mad,that I did not study at all.Well to be frank,I really did not study,did not have a reason,to study also.A big bummer though.Must have been the class Bum.

Then the thoughts rumble towards my crushes,there were a lot.I think I was having crushes like morning coffee,some were intimidating though.But did not take a decision towards any relationship with any one of em,cos knew it was a complete waste of my time.Man did I have realization even at that age....

Nothin else came up from the memory archives.just failed subjects and crushes.Should I remember any thing else.People always say,the your school days are the hey days...But for me ,it was the college,cos for me the reason in college was pretty simple,don't worry about marks,but lay the foundation for your future.I did!!(learned how to think....)

I do not have any regrets,so I assume,that it must have been gud!! :)

I also remember the crush that I had in LKG .Do you believe that,I cud remember that.But also,I do remember the face of my teacher,who used to crack my knuckles for talking or playing pranks on others during class in LKG.

It has been fun,but life ain't like that forever,so need to hang on to the thread of determination and hard work ,to make my mark in the world and have fun at the same time.

Signing of ,as I listen to the song "The River" by Good Charlotte.Really good tune...


-Alphy

EriDay - Events as it unfolds

Just now came back from attending the Eriday...It was a blast ,may be not the entire occasion.We(as in me and my fnds...) reached the venue as usual late( just an hour late),it was planned though.We did not like much of the events organized for us,so we took a short hike to the beach enjoyed the fresh salty air

Two of my fnds even took a skinny dip,just for the fun of it.After wards,we reached the venue,to join the rest,by then the cultural events started....

The real fun began,once the BAR opened.I had like a can of beer,or a cup of wine (dunno for sure ),stood in the front line cheering the Ericsson community.man was it exhilarating?

After that booze,food,then booze gain,dunno remember as to how long this continued,until,they said,it was over.

Later,we carried our drunk(or claiming to be drunk ) fnd back to the car,drove to his house dumped him,drove another fnd of mine back to his house ,and then reached my house.

Damn Gud time spent,not for the booze,food, but for the time spent with my fnds!!

Thank u Ericsson for the Eriday.

-Alphy